It’s fairly obvious in my last 2 posts that I have been depressed. I am so happy that I am not using anymore, but I still choose to drink on occasions and I pretty much loose it. (The last post was posted when I was drunk- I apologize.)
I do not hate life. I just get very frustrated when I make a mistake- like get drunk and act stupid. I just feel like that since I have quit using that everything else should be all better all the time too; not the case. When something bad happens, all the bad stuff from my past comes flooding back in to my mind. It literally drives me crazy sometimes. I have been having anxiety a lot lately and I can't even figure out why. Life is still life, with its many ups and downs.
I guess I just need to learn how to deal with the “down” part better. Some days are just better then others. Thank you to all who have been praying for me. Lord knows I need it.
I read a book the other day and thought I might suggest it to you. It's called, "Have a Little Faith" and is by Mitch Albom. It's a quick read, so even if you don't like it, it'll be over relatively quickly. Peace.
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